One never comes back to the same material in the same way twice. It can be helpful to ask - how is this different? This material may feel the same- but how is this coming up in a new way? What piece of work have I already done that is making this work possible to do? Finding ways to help yourself know that it is a process - that you are not at the same place again - can alleviate some of the dismay.
If you have taken the leap and begun to explore the world of healing and healers- congratulations! While I understand that it is pain and discomfort that most likely drive you to this unfolding - it is an incredible journey upon which you are embarking. Much of what you will learn will come out of the requirement that you be your own advocate with the people who help you. Learning to trust yourself throughout the process is the greatest learning of all.
…There is no protocol or philosophy that will ever matter more than your own internal knowing, internal timing and needs for processing. If any practitioner has a “way” they work - always make sure this person has flexibility to allow for your unique path through the work.
We do not expect people to be deeply moved by what is not unusual…If we had keen vision and feeling of all ordinary human life, it would be like hearing the grass grow and the squirrel’s heart beat, and we should die of that roar which lies on the other side of silence.
George Eliot, Middlemarch
…Many clients need assistance in finding and naming their experiences so that they can participate in the healing process and tell practitioners what they need. The gesture on the part of the practitioner to include clients as active participants in their own healing is only a gesture if clients do not have the tools to name, or the awareness to sense their own physical or energetic experiences.
Few clients trust their instincts when they see a practitioner. That gut hit of trust or reticence is often ignored in order to comply with the “helper”. Then the emotional, energetic and physical body are in a predicament of being “helped”, while they have not give their permission for the intervention.
Whether you are moving, ending a relationship, grieving the death of a loved one, changing careers or experiencing another kind of dramatic disruption in your habits and rhythms, you may be experiencing a dislocation from your physical environment, your routines and the ways you ground yourself.
Any transition you undertake (or are forced into) can evoke fear and doubt. You can feel disoriented and confused as your center of balance shifts. Transition is about loss, about the death of what you knew or who you knew yourself to be.